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Whether it is through an eloquent speech, a touching song or a well-written essay, words are simply the best way to get a message across. Different people may perceive different meanings and can't help but to ponder if there are more meaning behind the words, but they are out there, conveying what the author wanted to tell.

But I have left words unwritten inside the mind, and forgotten. I have been complacent, thinking things were OK, and I went along and rubbished my misgivings. But the heart does not lie. I DID have a change of heart, but I would not admit it. I tried to remain as I am, to love and be loved, but I know this is not the love I am looking for.

The romantic love may be over, yet a platonic love remains, wishing to see her succeed and be well. I may have felt the same for another, but that eventually became a different feeling. I am taking a huge risk on this, perhaps letting go of everything I have ever known. I may lose two good friends for my selfishness, but this is my true self, and I will have no regrets at the end of the day.

The will may waver at times, but my heart will steel itself for what it believes is the right choice. I will fall, and I will learn, like many others before me. I will break away from being a social hermit and let myself out to the world. I have put my thoughts into words, scrambled though it may be, but words have more resolution than mere thoughts, and I will follow through with what I have written.